The decisions we make !

I called my blog the daily noise.. should have probably called it the weekly noise. Hindsight is always 20/20. Anyhow.. This week I've hit a major milestone. I am very close to being debt free. This was one of my goals for 2008... and am totally relieved to be there finally. N and I were just talking about how we got here and the best of all what made us go through what we did. As a student, working towards my master's accumulated some loans and debt. Back then you are optimistic.. "OH ill find a job and repay this in no time ", then we got married...:) started living together, had a good job all along( thank God for that).. relocated... all along the costs kept adding up and plastic money was always there to the rescue..( read my sarcasm here). Make progress at work.. and now the rationale is " OH I'm moving up in life.. I can afford this and hey we've got our entire lives in front of us.. we'll take care of this--no BIG DEAL ".. Yeah right !!!

This brings me to a philosophical debate that most of us have at times.. Why do we make the decisions that we make ? For me at the beginning of this getting out of debt road.. I blamed everyone and everything. I took any available opportunity to blame the people around me.. the system, my job etc., etc., But the fact of the matter remains that it was me all along who was making these decisions... I just didnt want to wake up to the reality that I needed to make a lifestyle change here. If I need to be able to buy a house, I need to save money !( BTW this is how this whole endeavor started ). Im just using this as an example, there are a lot of situations where we don't want to take responsibility for what we have done. We just try to ignore/pawn it off. I do want to share some of things that N and I did to get here.. probably in one of my subsequent blogs. But this argument holds good in more that one scenario.. I can't do what I want in life.. I don't have time/resources etc., I don't agree with that.. Yes you have to give something up to gain something.. Its a balance, a trade off. It all depends on what you want more...and depends on the decision you make !

The Story of a Line !

Ok, here is my attempt at capturing the noise inside my head. Let me begin by saying that this is one of those new year thingie's where I want to try something new.. I forget the name of the blog, where the person was talking about new year resolutions, "most resolutions are made when people are hung over and during a hangover most people feel remorse and therefore have denigrating views about oneself.. and hence, the inability to stick to them long term."Anyways, this isn't one of those do betters this year type of resolutions... but more an effort to be in tune with my thoughts and events of 2009.
As I was thinking about what to write about myself.. for some reason Robert Prisig jumped into my head and spent almost 30 mins reading and remembering what I felt about the book that I read almost 5 years ago..When I first read it.. didnt quite understand the definitions of quality, romanticism and rationality that he was talking about in his book.. but this morning something drastic happened that IT ALL FELL IN PLACE. This brings me to the story I am going to write about here.. the story of a line ...

There once was a girl, who had 2 friends.. A Line and a Scribble. The girl was madly in love with the scribble because the scribble could bend and change shape whenever he wanted. As far as the line is concerned she thought the line was too rigid and boring. All he could do was bend at the most and nothing beyond right angles. But, the scribble could roll, twist and dance. The line was completely disappointed and accepted the fact that he could never win the girl over. He went about his life accepting this fact. All this went on till the line met the point.. The point made the line realize that the line was limited because he just didn't understand what his potential was.. He just had to realize that by understanding what he was made up of.. he could do wonders. This freed the line from his trap .. and he started making all these wonderful shapes and designs that the scribble could never do. After all the Scribble was just a scribble..and they lived happily ever after...

The reason I say this story is because just like Prisig I truly believe that romanticism and rationality need to harmoniously co exist. When this happens.. as a person or society we become capable of bigger, higher things. !!!


So, Santa is still out there.. We just havent figured out a way to prove it !!!


Hope you all had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year !!